Monday, February 11, 2013

My husband...on our Son's Cancer Journey

There has been many times I have wanted to express my thoughts about one person in my life who has seen me at my worse and my best during this journey.  This person is my balance, my equal, my life, and the person who picks me up when I have felt despair.  He is my soul mate.  He is my husband.

My husband is a man who is quiet and solemn.  He is a man of great thought and wisdom.    My husband is one that does not like attention, and there has been many moments that I have wanted to share much about my husband as I have posted my thoughts and emotions about this journey.  However, I have hesitated until now as I know he likes his privacy.  But, today, I want to honour my husband on this anniversary day of our son's diagnosis. 

Many people do not see my husband's true character.  He is the funniest person I know.  He makes me laugh at the most inopportune times.  He is a father that goes beyond the call of duty.  You will find my husband playing make believe, playing games, making crafts, telling stories, and just having child-like fun.  He is also a father that cares and tries to listen to his children's thoughts and emotions.  God has blessed me with my husband Michael.

We have certainly had our ups and downs as all husband's and wives do, but as we have journeyed together we have become closer.  There have been many moments when I have feared, cried, worried, and my husband came to encourage me.  He has held me and let me cry.  He allows me to be what I need to be in any given moment, but without letting me fall.  My heavenly Father guides me, gives me faith and peace that surpasses all understanding, but there have been days where this journey has been difficult.  My husband has been by my side during those days to encourage my heart.

We have balanced each other during this journey as though we have practiced this dance.  During days of difficulty for my husband it was my time of strength, and when I felt weak my husband was there for me.  We have perfected this dance over the last four years, but sometimes we stumble when there is unknown territory.  However, it will never change the fact that Michael is the person who I am forever glad to have my by side through all adversities.  I am glad he has been by my side during our son's journey with cancer.  He is and will forever be the most wonderful man, husband and father for our family.  Thank you Jesus for this gift of marriage.  You have brought us through much together and I pray we continue to trust and rely on you.  Thank you to my husband for being my partner during this journey that has effected us physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.  We can conquer everything together, as a family of five, and most importantly, with trusting God in all that we do.

1 comment:

  1. Hi Smith Family! It's been a while since I have been on your blog, but it has been such a wonderful way for me to see how your family has gone through this journey while relying on the Lord all the while. I just wanted to say that everyone at Northdale is very excited to hear your recent news. My 3 children and I pray for you each night (so I'm averaging at least 3 times a day!) and they are also super happy to hear that you are feeling better Gabriel!
    Many blessings to your entire family,
    Melissa Jansen

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